Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Taking in the Moments with Shawndra

Dear Faithful Ones-
It is with a heavy heart that I give you the latest update. The procedure did not produce much of anything out of her G-tube. Therefore, they have given her a medication to try to dry up the digestive enzymes so that she does not have nausea/vomitting. In addition to this, she, Doug, the doctors, and our family have decided to no longer give Shawndra any IV nutrition (TPN) nor any IV fluids. The only thing she'll be receiving are pain meds from now on. This is a hard decision, but an appropriate course at this time.
Shawndra's battle with cancer is coming to a close. Her poor body is just no longer able to withstand infection. She will be getting the sole care of hospice starting this evening. We have a wonderful place for her ready. The entire family asks that you respect the fact that this is OUR - FAMILY time. We know so many of you want to say good-bye, we understand, however, we need to have peace and time with our beloved mom, wife, daughter, and sister. Thank you for respecting this. You may email myself, Doug, or post on the blog, we will respond when we can/feel up to it. I will continue to keep you all up to date with the major happenings but for the moment, please remain in prayer for each of us as we learn to let go and let GOD.
We appreciate what each and every one of you has done for us, be it prayer, meals, childcare, counselor/someone to talk to, helper, and friend. We have had an amazing journey and felt such love and faith surround us the past 2 years. May God continue to bless each of you and your family's as well.

One of our daycare provider's left this verse on the blog a while ago and I just remember it and want to leave it for you all!
Matthew 6:25
"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?" Enjoy today, let God handle the rest!

Taking in each moment with Shawndra,
Andrea

186 comments:

Anonymous said...

Know that your family, friends and prayer warriors are with you. May this time with your loved one be as special as the first. We continue to pray for Shawndra and her family. Everyone is so proud of her courageous battle.

Anonymous said...

Thank you for sharing this journey with us. We will keep all of you in our prayers during this very difficult time. Try to find comfort through God and know that you will all be together again one day.

Anonymous said...

Delurking for the very first time and I've been reading from the very beginning. Holding you close to my heart...

Traci from Ohio

Paulette said...

Yes thank-you for taking time out of your precious time with your beloved Shawndra to let us know and share in this sacred time with Shawndra.
It is such a sad time, and such a deep loss.
May Shawndra rest in the arms of Jesus, as well as all of you who will miss her so deeply.

Anonymous said...

You are each in my thoughts and prayers. Blessed is the legacy of Shawndra, a truly inspirational being!

Terra Shover

Anonymous said...

Dear Shawndra and family,
we send you love and prayers although our hearts are heavy tonight.

Anonymous said...

Your family is in our thoughts and prayers always! Thank you for letting us be apart of you journey. May you find comfort through God. We Love You All!

The Mudge Family

Anonymous said...

i am so proud of shawndra, and of you all. you have endured with such grace, humor and strength. my prayers are with you all, especially ella, for what lies ahead. shawndra is such an integral part of a time in my life that i hold very close to my heart. she will never be far from my thoughts. love and prayers to you all- becca (eise) kappel

Barb said...

My faith has been so strengthened by the journey as shared with us by Shawndra ~ prayers and love for the family! God loves Shawndra and has a special message in her time with us! Her courage and that of her family and friends is amazing... thank you for sharing this time in your lives!

Anonymous said...

We love you very much. You are in our hearts and minds every day.
With love from California,
Catherine & family

Anonymous said...

I hope that you and your family are able to find comfort and peace. God bless you all!

With love and prayers -
Susan McRae and family

Anonymous said...

I love you Shawndra. You have meant so much to my everyday life. You have inspired us all to be better people. Now it's time for you to be free. Go, be with Jesus, free of pain, free of suffering and know that you are loved and will be missed. God bless your entire family. I pray for you daily.

Kristen

Kristen

Anonymous said...

Shawndra, you and your family is in our prayers. May the time you have with left with each other be peaceful. Thank you for showing me and so many what courage and dignity means. I remain in awe of you.
C.

Anonymous said...

Shawndra,

I am praying for you tonight, that you are pain free and that you feel the love of your family and all of those who are thinking of you tonight. You are an amazing woman and have taught me so much about life. You have gone through this journey with amazing grace, dignity, strength and courage.

To the Turner and Beauchamp families: you are all in my prayers tonight and my heart aches for you all. How blessed you have been to have Shawndra in your lives. I pray for strength for you all.

Jennifer Teegarden

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Anonymous said...

I have never posted, but have followed Shawndra's story since the diagnosis of a friend of mine exactly a year ago. I learned of Shawndra's courageous battle when I added my friend facing the same disease to the prayer list at my church.

I pray for Shawndra and her family often, and I specifically pray for peace to enter your hearts as Shawndra slips into eternal life. As the mom of a little girl Ella's age, I especially pray that those who know and love Shawndra keep her spirit alive so Ella continues to know the amazing love her Mommy has for her.

Shawndra is blessed to have so many who love her reach out to her. To her family - what a loving choice you all have made at this juncture as it is painful to watch someone you love hurt. Enjoy your precious time as you make peace with God and lift each other up to help Shawndra take flight as an angel.

Peace and Godspeed to all of you...
Liz Krueger

Anonymous said...

Thinking of you all and praying for Shawndra's comfort.
God bless,
Melody

Anonymous said...

May you be blessed with peace at this time. Keeping you close in my heart. amy graver beers

Anonymous said...

Dearest Shwandra's family members

As my heart beats heavy after reading Andrea's words, it seems all we can send is our love and prayers.

GOD IS IN CHARGE.

We love each and every one of you.
Doug, who I only met at the wedding.
Ella, who I only saw for 20 minutes visiting in K. City while Shwandra was already fighting colon cancer.
Carol and Gary, who we met in 1973 and our friendship and closeness grew over the years, mainly after Gary helped us immigrate to the States and we lived in K. City for 4 years after arriving in 1991.
It's almost unbeliavable, you are losing your Shwandra.
Be strong together, as this is the hardest battle for parents.
Grandma, Janet, Tim, and all family members we met, we love you so much.
Andrea, the sister who's been so corageously battling along Shwandra's side while being a full time working Mom, sister, daughter and wife.

Shwandra, the courageous young girl we met as a kid. Your brightfull eyes
are in our minds all the time and we'll never forget you.

God is taking care of you Shwandra, your guardian angels are at your side to receive you in peace at abetter place, where you'll be pain free.

May you go fearless and in peace.

We are so sad to lose you.
We 'll always pray for you and your family, now and forever.

Love,
The Brazilian family of Roswita, Marcus , Rainer and Carla.

Anonymous said...

There are no words for what you all are feeling. Just know that many people are praying for your family. The Lord will be ready to open his arms for Shawndra.

kelley said...

Always in our hearts and prayers. We love you all.

Anonymous said...

Shawndra and Family, you are in my thoughts and prayers during this difficult time. Peace and love be with you all.

Anonymous said...

May your family be comforted in knowing that you are surrounded by love and prayer. May Shawndra be at peace knowing that she is entering eternal life without pain and suffering. God bless.
- Kim

Anonymous said...

I will keep you and Shawndra in my prayers. Cherish these moments and do not worry about us. I pray for the pain to end and the healing to begin.

Melony said...

My prayers are with each of you as you sit by Shawndra's side and wait for the Lord to take her home. Shawndra is an amazing woman and has made such a difference in my life and so many others. I will truly miss her sense of humor that shined through in her posts. Ella, your mother was amazing and she left behind such a story for your Daddy to share with you as you grow..

God, please give this family peace that only you can provide during such a difficult time.. Help Shawndra to be pain free.. I can only imagine the celebration there will be when she enters the gates of Heaven and her body is fully restored!!

Angie in Roswell, Georgia said...

Shawndra, You have inspired me to be a better mother, daughter, and friend. Thank you for sharing your journey with us. You and your family are in my prayers. God Bless.

Anonymous said...

My heart is heavy and I have tears. This was read at one point for my dad......

One day, God Himself will take your face in His hands and gently wipe away your tears as He reassures you there will be no more suffering.....You can look forward with hope, because one day there will be....no more separation, no more scars, no suffering, no more tears at all.

You are all in my thoughts and prayers.

B. Baranczuk Brubeck

Anonymous said...

Peace be with you.
Beth Patterson

Anonymous said...

I have followed your story for awhile now. Many hugs and prayers are being sent to all of you.

God is with you all.

Jessica

Anonymous said...

Bless your hearts and give you strength to get through this tough time. I pray that Shawndra is pain free and that you and the family are able to find strength with eachother and with God to carry through your tough battle as well.

In love and prayer, Mandy Hamlin Featherston

Jodi said...

Shawndra: Thank you for sharing your journey. Although I don't personally know you, you have become a big part of my everyday life. I pray for you and your family everyday. You are such a BRAVE WOMAN and an inspiration to us all! Thank you for reminding me what is REALLY IMPORTANT! Big Hugs to you and your family!

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Anonymous said...

We hold you up in our thoughts and prayers in the hope of increasing your peace and comfort.
with our love as you go through this difficult time,
Marilyn & Jim

Lori said...

My love and prayers are with Doug, Ella, every friend, every family member, and those who have just "met" Shawndra through this blog. It is with a heavy heart that I read the latest post. I'm going through the same thing with my grandmother. She entered hospice care last Friday and is in her last days. I will continue praying for Shawndra. Thank you for allowing us to take this journey with her. Please tell her to Let Go and Let God and find comfort in Him! I have truly been blessed by reading this blog and will always remember Shawndra and her fighting spirit. Love Always!

Auntie D said...

Continued prayers for Shawndra and her family. May God comfort you all and help you through this difficult time.

Anonymous said...

May peace be with you all. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Lots of love to you all.

Brooke Weldon Stinson

Anonymous said...

My prayers are with you all. Shawndra is a true example of grace and courage.

Sandi (Omaha)

Anonymous said...

Fly away home sweet girl.
We love you.

Anonymous said...

My heart aches for your family. Although I do not have the pleasure of knowing Shawndra, I can tell she is an exceptional individual. She has inspired me to be a better mom, wife, sister and friend. Blessings.

Lorna Taylor said...

Andrea,

The "birds in the air" referenced in the scripture you quoted, Matthew 6:25-26, is the inspiration for one of my very favorite, old hymns: His Eye Is on the Sparrow.

Here's a particularly moving version of this song, performed to a standing ovation by 12-year-old gospel music prodigy Bryan Wilson. He is joined by the Mississippi Children's Choir:

http://tinyurl.com/Shawndra

I hope it brings the same comfort to others as it has to me. - Lorna in Olathe

Anonymous said...

As I lay here in tears reading all of these posts, all I can think of is DITO to everything that has been said by all of these wonderful, caring friends of yours!

Shawndra has inspired me to stop and rethink a lot of things and has reminded me of what is really important! Since following her journey, I have been taping my son weekly and want to start a journal. I PRAY I am half the mom, wife, sister, daughter that you are!

Ella, you are in THE best hands of the Turner Family! I am
confident they will keep your moms spirit alive forever...

Sending all the love, hugs, prayer I have in me to EVERYONE,
Alana Dober, DC

Anonymous said...

Blessings to all of you. Safe journey home sweet shawndra. To the family prayers and love surround you all.

Anonymous said...

Thinking and praying for your family. Peace be with you all.
A friend of Jan V.

Anonymous said...

I have only posted a handful of times, but please know my heart and prayers are with you tonight. I heard a song on KLOVE today that reminded me of this painful journey, and the lyrics talked about "there will be a day, with no more tears, no more pain, when we'll see Jesus face to face". I hope that you find comfort in that, and in having assurance that you WILL see your precious Shawndra again, and the next time you do, this horrible cancer will not even be a memmory - for you will be in the warm glow of heaven where there will be no more tears. May God hold all of you close to him in the coming days.

Stephanie in CA

Jennifer (jkincolorado) said...

I've read this blog from the beginning even though I don't know any of you. Thank you for the update and I wish you all comfort and peace during this transition.

Anonymous said...

Oh my heavens, Lorna, tears are pouring down my face!!!

What are words to this song? You couldn't have picked a better video to post, especially after what Andrea wrote. Please tell us, what are the words to this song, and also who wrote it?

Thanks, Lorna.

Jessy K. in New Brunswick

Anonymous said...

I am so sorry you are going through this. I have been reading your blogs for awhile now and my heart aches with this news. May you close your eyes and never have to suffer again. Ella loves you so much and is so lucky to have had you in her life. Please rest.

Much love,

Brittany

snugli01 said...

I am keeping the my prayers steady for you all. I only recently came back into your life and I feel that my heart is breaking for you.

I know you are very strong woman Shawndra, and it gives me great honor to call you family.

From my heart to yours
Your Cousin Debbie

snugli01 said...

Somebody's Praying
By: Ricky Skaggs

Somebody's praying I can feel it
Somebody's praying for me
Mighty hands are guiding me
to protect me from what I can't see

Lord I believe
Lord I believe
Somebody's Praying for me

Angels are watching I can feel it.
Angels are watching over me
There's many miles ahead till I get home still I am safely kept before your throne.

Cause Lord I believe
Lord I believe
Your Angels are watching over me

Well I have walked the very wilderness where my pillow was a stone, and I have been through the darkest cavern where no light had ever shown still I went on cause there was someone who was down on their knees and lord I thank you for those people praying all this time for me.

Somebody's praying I can feel it
Somebody's praying for me
Mighty hands are guiding me to protect me from what I can't see

Lord I believe
Lord I believe
Somebody's Praying for me

Somebody's Praying for me

Pepper Gerstner said...

What a beautiful subject line....the words just sound beautiful!
Thank you for always keeping us posted. Many thoughts & prayers are with you and your family at this time.

Cheryl said...

My heart is breaking for you all during this special time. Although I've never met Shawndra in this life, I look forward to meeting the young lady that has met this important challenge with grace, patience, love and a smile that has inspired so many. We pray for Doug, Ella and so many family and friends who will miss her incredibly as she soars on the wings of angels.

Bless you for sharing the love and pain so openly.

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Lorna Taylor said...

Hi Jessy - I'm glad you liked the video I posted for Shawndra. As with many gospel hymns, the singer takes some liberty with the lyrics, but here's what this talented little 12-year-old boy is singing:

His Eye Is on the Sparrow

Why should I feel discouraged?
Why should the shadows come?
Why should my heart be lonely, and long for my heavenly home?
When Jesus is my portion --- a constant friend is He.
His eye is on the sparrow, and I know He watches me.

I sing because I'm happy,
I sing because I'm free.
His eye is on the sparrow,
And I know . . . He watches . . . me!


More details concerning this beautiful old hymn and its meaning can be found here.

I hope Shawndra and Andrea get to hear it, or at least feel the reassurance and love that are its message.

MMM&M said...

Shawndra-- I have never met you, but I have come to love you through your writing. praying for your family---- LOVE you.

Anonymous said...

Shawndra, My heart is heavy this morning...for your loved ones...yet, knowing how much God loves you...knowing he may soon take you by the hand and give you 'perfect healing' I realize you will have peace.
To your family, what a trooper she has been...fighting so hard...going the extra mile...all with the hope of more time with all of you...love on her and I know you will love her all of your days...Ella,you will know her Mommy~
~blessings~ from a Mama in Illinois

Anonymous said...

Heaven is preparing for a VERY SPECIAL angel to arrive.....May you find Peace from the love of God and from your own special family love during this difficult time... Shawndra's battle and willingness to share her life and journey with all of us has touched and changed many lives.... Thank you for opening your lives and hearts to all of us..... Many thoughts and prayers are flowing your way.....Shawndra will remain in the hearts of many......

Terri said...

Peace to you all. Thank you all for sharing this very personal journey. Our prayers are will you all.

Anonymous said...

May God give you strength, bring you peace and bless all of you...

Vandra

Anonymous said...

Sweet Shawndra, may your journey to God be filled with peace and know that you are so loved by many. I will hold your smile with me and remember all that you and your family did for Jan and Jen and those of us who have taken this journey before know where your hearts are and we embrace you and wish you peace. There are no words to help but prayers are coming your way. I love you all and thank you for letting me into your journey. With a heavy heart, Melodie Chrisman

Robin said...

I am so very sorry. Shawndra is in my thoughts and prayers, as is her entire family during this difficult time.

Anonymous said...

Shawndra,
Hoping for no more suffering...
May you and your family be surrounded by infinite love and peace.
Debora.

Anonymous said...

You are in our thoughts and prayers. --Keely Endecott Daly & Family

bahama mama said...

Dear Shawndra,

It was a privilege and a great pleasure to have you in my life. What were the odds that my mom would find a job with your dad 27 years ago? That we would end up spending a good amount of our childhood, together, at the same ice rink? Was it God's will that church kept us together beyond the ice rink?
Thank you for the memories. You brought enough laughter into my life to last an eternity. The videos, photos, stories and moments will not be forgotten. You helped bring me home. For all of these things, and countless more, I am grateful from the bottom of my heart.
You were about the closest thing I had to a sister. You will live in my heart forever. Doug, Ella, and the rest of your family reside there too. Thank you for allowing me the time to get to know, as well.
I hope that all of the people, whose lives you touched, will realize the best way to remember you is to do something that will help those battling cancer now and in the future. The battle against cancer needs funding, but it also needs time. There are so many ways to volunteer that no one has an excuse not to.
How many people know that you called me to volunteer at the last Race for the Cure in Kansas City? How many people realize that you rose above your disease and stood at the finish line, for a few hours, and handed roses to breast cancer survivors?
I will miss you dearly. You fought an amazing fight. Thank you for letting us all into your life. You have blessed us all.
You deserve peace. As Monsignor said, I believe you will be living an eternity of the best and happiest moments of your life. I look forward to enjoying that with you, some day down the road.

My love forever, d

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Michelle said...

The Turner and Beauchamp families are on my mind and in my prayers today. Shawndra, you will be close to my heart forever.

I wish you all peace and comfort, and that Shawndra may feel the love from so many that surrounds her.


Michelle

Anonymous said...

I've never commented here before, but have been reading for some time.

May God grant you peace, Shawndra for the courageous battle you're fighting.

Saying a prayer for everyone in your family today.

Anonymous said...

YOUR ANGEL OF PRAYER IS AT A LOSS OF WORDS THIS MORNING AS TEARS STREAM DOWN MY CHEEKS...I PRAYED SO THAT IT WOULD NOT COME TO THIS FOR DEAR SHAWNDRA....READING HER WORDS OVER THE YEARS WITH A SPARKLE IN HER SMILE AND HER TEE HEE GIGGLE....EVENTHOUGH WE HAVE NEVER MET IN PHYSICAL PERSON, WE HAVE MET IN THE SPIRITUAL ONE....I CARRY YOU CLOSE IN MY HEART DAILY...PEACE BE WITH U DEAR ONE...THANK U ANDREA FOR THE UPDATE...MAY YOUR FAMILY TAKE THESE MOMENTS WITH SHAWNDRA AND FIND COMFORT AMONGST EACH OTHER...LEAN ON THE LORD ...WITH CHRISTIAN LOVE AND FRIENDSHIP, YOUR ANGEL OF PRAYER IN KC, MO...JEN MILLER :)

Marie said...

Godspeed dear girl, you are greatly loved. May you rest in the loving arms of our Father. Blessings on your entire family at this time.

Hugs,
Marie

Anonymous said...

As I prayed for all of you last night, several tears rolled down my cheek. Victoria asked me why I was crying and I said that the tears I shed are happy and sad. Happy tears filled with wonderful memories and lessons learned from my wonderful "butterfly" teacher. Happy tears filled with the fact that Shawndra will soon be free from pain and she will get to be with the Lord, where she will be welcomed with open arms. Happy tears knowing bells will be ringing when Shawndra receives her angel wings. Happy tears celebrating the beautiful life of such a remarkable, unforgettable woman. For my own selfish reasons, my sad tears come from knowing I will not see her again, hold her hand, get pedicures together wearing our favorite "cajun shrimp" from OPI. I will miss her smile and her giggle and the unique way she would always say good-bye on the phone.
She is loved and will always be in my heart.
All my love to the Gary,Carolyn, Andrea and Greg and the extended Beachamp Family, as well as Steve, Vicki, Chrissy and the extended Turner Family. To Angie and Dustin..thank you for being such caring, loving and supportive friends to not only Shawndra, but to Doug as well. Angie...thank you for loving and taking care of Ella when Shawndra was unable to. Ella is Shawndra's most precious gift...to have that honor bestowed upon you says a lot about how much Shawndra trusts you and loves you.

I am holding you all close to my heart and words cannot express how much we love and care about you all.

Love, (((hugs)))and butterfly kisses!

The Palmer Family
Brad, Brandi, Victoria and Olivia

Anonymous said...

Please know you are in the thoughts of many at this difficult time. May you have strength to get through these difficult days.

Anonymous said...

You are all in my prayers, especially Shawndra as she ready's to meet Him in the Kingdom After. Shawndra fought such a couragous battle with diginity and I respect her so much. I never met Shawndra, but will remember her always.

Anonymous said...

In my prayers always....may peace envelop you all and hold you close until your sweet angel flies away. Shawndra will forever be in my heart. She has touched so many and brought so much awareness to her cause. I so admire her and will forever be changed having known her through this blog. It has been a long journey having been here since the start and I so want peace for her and for you her family.
With a heavy heart ((HUGS))
Deb (LSMO)

Anonymous said...

Shawndra's journey has been done with faith, strength, dignity and I only hope that when the Lord whispers my name I have half of those things Shawndra has shown through her journey.

Anonymous said...

I have never posted to this blog, but I wanted to leave a note to the family about what an amazing woman you have in your lives. I know you already know this, and she has touched many lives. She will continue to be an inspiration to you. I thank everyone who has blogged her journey.

Shawndra, God is with you. I pray you have comfort right now. Doug and Ella you were so lucky to have a wonderful wife and mother. I pray to be half the woman she is. And to Shawndra's Parents and all other family bless you all right now more than ever. I can't imagine what all of you are going through but you are in everyones prayers right now. Thank you for the steady updates. We Love you all so.

Holly (Lurvey) Lindvall said...

My family in Connecticut are holding you in our hearts today as we have since we learned of your courageous battle with colon cancer. It seems only fitting that it is a cold and rainy day here.

May you find sunshine, warmth and the comfort of those that have gone before you when you are finally free to fly to away.

Love and prayers to you, Shawndra, your family and all of your friends who are grieving so deeply for you.

Your A-Phi Sister,
Holly (Lurvey) Lindvall

Anonymous said...

Thank you for keeping us posted...I suppose we knew this time would come, and I'm glad Shawndra was able to be involved in the choices you now face. Shawndra has touched my life in so many ways, and continues to lift me up to make the most of each day. What good times we had as college roommates and in the years following...she is truly a special individual. Hold each other tightly and I'll be sending hugs from Memphis... love, Amy Vavere

Anonymous said...

Beauchamp and Turner families, I pray for peace and comfort for you. Shawndra, I am so lucky to have had shared friendship, laughter, lake house trips, church trips, and many more special memories with you. I hold them close to my heart. God must have had a hand in us becoming best of friends in 5th grade and throughout our childhood, for I would not be who I am today without your influence, laughter, and conversation. You are one in a million. I will hold you and your family close to my heart forever. You have touched my life more than you know. You have fought a courageous battle and deserve the peace of life everlasting. I continue to pray for you...
Your sister through Crist, Julie

Leisa said...

Thank you so much for sharing this journey. It has made me appreciate each day and to strive to be a better person and a better christian to follow Shawndra's beautiful life for 2 years now. I do not take life, love or my family for granted. Shawndra has been a very positive influence on my life and I will miss her dearly. Shawdra, I never got to meet you in person on this earth. But I will see you one day in Heaven. May God Bless your beautiful soul. My heart thoughts and prayers are with you and your entire family. Love and peace, Leisa

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Anonymous said...

God Bless Shawndra...Praying for peace and comfort....May her family find strength and courage during this difficult time.

Melissa (LSMO)

Anonymous said...

May God guide you and give you strength.

Anissa said...

Dearest Shawndra,

Please know that a day does not go by that I do not think and pray for you. I am not alone, as you have touched my life in ways I could never imagine. YOu have given me strength even at your weakest moments, courage at your most vulnerable, faith in God above even when you may have doubted, and filled me with love that I can only hope you felt us all giving in return. Your journey has not been in vain, my Dear Friend! Thank you for all you have done for me, unaware as I am sure you were. I will continue to pray for you, but especially your dear, sweet Family who you leave behind. I will do my best each day to live my life according to God's plan, so I can see your smiling face again one day in Heaven.

To Doug, Ella and the rest of your amazing Family~Thank you for sharing her with us! Your unselfishness has not gone unnoticed or unappreciated. Even though your journey is far from over, know you will continue it with prayers, thoughts and abounding love from myself, as well as so many others. Please never fail to ask of me anything I might be able to do to help any of you in any way.

Love,
Anissa Lomshek

Anonymous said...

I hope God grants each of you a wave of peacefulness for the selfless decsisions you have made for your loved one. We are there for you Doug and Ella....you are in our thoughts and prayers.

Anonymous said...

shawndra you will be in God's loving arms soon. he has many plans for you....one being dancing with the angles..sue

Anonymous said...

Even though I don't know you personally,I have followed your blog for the last couple of years ever since Jennifer Ireland. Shawndra is an amazing woman and always had a sense of humor about her even when I know she was having a bad day-that shows her true character. I wish Doug, Ella and all her family and friends nothing but peace and comfort during this difficult time! There's no doubt she was loved by all - if only that were enough she would be here for many years to come!

Becky said...

I can't imagine what a difficult time this is for you and your family having to say goodbye, but thankfully you have God to give you the strength you and all the family needs. God has realized that Shawndra has put up a hell of a fight and He is ready to set her free and what a blessing that will be. We here on Earth will struggle with the... Read More loss but know that Shawndra is going to be in such a better place........I feel as I know you personally and have never met you before but my heart is so burdened right now. I will continue to lift you up in prayers!

Anonymous said...

I hope the entire family finds peace and comfort at this difficult time.
Bev
(family friend the Kristoff's in St. Louis)

Anonymous said...

Shawndra,
It has been an honor getting to know you through your blog. I pray your journey to heaven is peaceful and filled with the grace that only God can provide. Soon you will be whole and healthy and for that I rejoice for you! You will be rejoicing in the Lord and praising him! What a wonderful thought that can hopefully get you through this painful time. Although I am sure this is not what you wanted I am sure that God has something more planned for you.

Praying for you and yours,
Christie in GA

Tara said...

I've been following Shawndra's amazing journey from the beginning. She is an inspiration and will be a glorious angel! Holding you all up in prayer as this chapter ends and a new one begins. She is a wonderful person and I only know this through her words. I can only imagine how wonderful she is in person. Thank her for letting us all in on her personal, courageous journey with cancer. I will be praying for a peaceful journey home. God Bless you Shawndra & family.

JP said...

I don't Shawndra apart from this blog, but she influenced me to take care of some health issues that I'd been neglecting. My thoughts and prayers are with your family.

JP in Arkansas

Jess in Nebraska said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you all...I don't know Shawndra, personally, but she has changed my life. Her courage in sharing this journey with all of us...has changed me. I am so sorry that you all are suffering. I think of you so often and pray for peace and comfort. Thank you for sharing your life with us.

Anonymous said...

Shawndra and Family,
You are in my prayers.
With love,
Wendy

Vickie Wieberg Family said...

THANK YOU for continuing & taking on the role of Blog narrater for the sake of Shawndra & her prayer warriors. Im sure this has not been an easy post.
Know that your whole family is in so many peoples prayers. We pray for Shawndra, only for an easy & wonderful transition. Soon, our prayers will be with her whole family, they will be the ones left to cope with life without her.
Our prayers are with you. God Bless you, Vickie Wieberg family in J.C., Mo.

Anonymous said...

Your family is in my thoughts and prayers. God will give you all the strength to get through this. Thank you for sharing your battle with us. You are such a brave woman!

Rachel said...

You are all in my prayers during this difficult time.!

Norm said...

I am thinking about all of you, my name is Norm Loewen, my wife Tami posted here a few times, and I know Shawndra posted on her blog as well.

We lost Tami just over a week and a half ago, so I know what you are going thru first hand, If I can do anything for you, even if its an email outlet please feel free to do so.

I am still working thru it myself, but I know how much Tami enjoyed her conversations with her friends like Shawndra and I have no doubt that Tami will greet her when it is Shawndra's time.

Again, if there is anything I can do, feel free to email me loewen@mchsi.com.

Becky Lukehart said...

Please tell Shawndra again how much her extended family at CMH loves her and how blessed we are to have her in our lives. What an inspiration she has been to all of us and words cannot even express the impact that she has had on our lives. Please know that all of you have been in my prayers throughout this journey. May you feel the love of the Lord in an ever precious way today as He holds all of you and precious Shawndra in His arms.

claudia said...

Hi Shawndra and family,
My name is Claudia Calderon and I used to ice skate with you and Andrea many many yrs ago, I actually was in the ice capades with you SHawndra, you were always an amazing skater. I have been keeping up with your blog for the past 8 or 9 months and just wanted to thank you for sharing this long and emotional journey with all of us. You are a very brave and incredibly sound soul and you are in the hearts and thoughts of many, including myself.

storyassistant said...

I'm forever an optimist & during our years at Drake we shared so many amazing (and fun) memories. I can only hope that those fond memories each of us have shared with Shawndra provide some encouragement during these times. Each of you are in our prayers.

Our Very Best,

Matt & Allie (Tower) Batt

Anonymous said...

I pray for Shawndra and your family. May your last days and hours with her be peaceful. Thank you for sharing. Shawndra has truly become a friend through the blog. May the Lord bless and keep you.

Anonymous said...

I wish you the strength and courage that you will need during this time with your wonderful Shawndra. I looked back at some of the pictures and although I have never met her, I would've loved to. Her pics show a very happy, funny and beautiful person. By reading her blogs, I know that she is beautiful on the inside too, always trying to be upbeat and low key about her illness and so courageous. Ella you have one special Mommy. Shawndra will be one special angel watching over her family.

Anonymous said...

You are all in my prayers and may God grant you peace.
Kelly

Anonymous said...

Hey Shawndra, chances of you reading this are slim, I know, but I wanted to drop a line anyway. You know me and technology don’t mesh too well, as I’ve indicated many times in my old-school, snail-mail cards, and it’s taken me a few minutes to figure out how to even post a message, but I decided to do it because I think it’s important to join the collective and public voice of those who have been touched by your life. Words are hard to find because they seem rather hollow, trivial and insignificant given the realities, but as entry after entry have been posted over these years, it’s clear that people desire to express as best they can their love, concern and gratitude. I strongly share much of what has been articulated. I am blessed that I am one of the lucky ones who has had the pleasure of knowing you personally and consider you a friend. I have many, many good and vivid memories from our days at Drake. That laugh is unforgettable.

To the Turners and Beauchamps, there is likely much you have, and will continue, to question about the hand that Shawndra was dealt and it may be difficult to reconcile, but remember that God created us and He created the spectrum of human emotion – don’t be afraid to get real and be honest with Him about how you feel. He’ll meet you at whatever point you’re at. Remember Psalm 147:3, “He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.” I debated whether or not to include the section pasted below, as my intentions were to keep its submission anonymous beyond the nomination committee itself, but I’ve modified it slightly and hope it captures to some degree the incredible impact Shawndra has made in 32 years on this earth. Ella, your mom is amazing and she always will be.

Until we meet again,
-Flatt

To Ella:


December 5, 2008

“You don’t drown by falling in the water, you drown by staying there.” -- Edwin Louis

Why start off an achievement award nomination with a quote that seems completely counter-intuitive of such an honor? Because it speaks to the dissonance we sometimes experience in life and the indelible power of the human spirit to overcome and find goodness in the harshest of tragedies. And, in doing so, the quote perfectly captures the attitude adopted by the alumna I am nominating for the 2009 Young Alumni Achievement Award. I am nominating Shawndra Turner for the Young Alumni Achievement Award not because of the awards and accolades she has attained, but because she epitomizes the best of the human spirit mentioned above; she represents the “pride of Drake University” as listed on the nomination form.

Shawndra’s story is likely very different from other Alumni Award nominations you have received. Unfortunately, I cannot fully capture all the details of her story, as she and I lost direct contact with one another a few years after we graduated from Drake. However, that very fact demonstrates even more poignantly the impact she is having. To summarize, Shawndra was diagnosed with a rare form of colorectal cancer at age 30 and not long after her diagnosis, she decided to start an internet blog to document her journey. (Here is the website link so that you can learn more about her story and gain personal insight into the difference she is making in the world. http://shawndraturner.blogspot.com) I was aware of her struggles and would ask for updates through a mutual friend, but it was not until March 2008 that I became aware of her blog. Though I am not very familiar with this medium of communication, I have been amazed to read the stories of her journey and, perhaps more so, by the responses that people post on her site. There are people across the globe, most of whom have never met Shawndra, whose lives have been positively changed forever by her willingness to share her story. Her blog raises awareness of, and philanthropic support for, colorectal cancer and related diseases; encourages communication and support among readers; puts others who are dealing with cancer in contact with one another; and allows family and friends to stay abreast of her current successes and setbacks. Shawndra is leveraging the power of internet and its ability to unify, communicate and educate.

The heartbreak found in Shawndra’s story is easy to recognize and is undeniable. However, the grace and selflessness with which she has responded to her tragedy is what differentiates her. Drake has always strived for excellence as seen in a quote from Drake’s own founder, George Carpenter, "Institutions of learning must come under this rule: By their fruits ye shall know them;” her character is certainly evidence of this principle. And likewise, when we look at what our alma mater aspires to represent today as stated in its mission, “Drake…prepares students for meaningful personal lives, professional accomplishments, and responsible global citizenship…” then Shawndra Turner embodies the best of our best. By their fruits we shall, indeed, see and know the ideals of our great University in action.

Respectfully,
Emily Flatt, JO ‘99

Astraea said...

I'm going to miss Shawndra's funny "he he he" and true honesty. I pray you're time together is amazing. I also pray for a beautiful painless time for Shawndra. God bless all of you. Thank you for sharing her with us...

Eric said...

My prayer is for Shawndra to have complete peace and for family and friends to experience God's grace in accepting His plan!
Many prayers and best wishes!
Eric Vest

Mollie said...

I'm an anonymous reader who has followed Shawndra and family for over a year. As an outsider, I look at photos of Shawndra and Ella and know in my soul that Ella will feel her mother's love around her for her entire life. There is an aura of love around the two of them that comes across a computer screen. As a young mom of two boys, I'm sending strength and hope to Shawndra and her family...

Also, Doug had mentioned a while back that he would like to publish the blog into a keepsake book for Ella. This sort of thing is sort of my specialty, and I'd love to take on the project as a gift to Shawndra and Ella. If you're interested (absolutely no pressure!) you can reach me at mollie1@gmail.com

God bless.

Anonymous said...

I am praying for all of you during this incredibly difficult time. Shawndra's strength throughout her fight has been amazing.

Anonymous said...

Continued prayers for such an amazing woman. Shawndra you have been such an inspiration for me in dealing with my own cancer dx. You truely are an example of what grace, strength and beauty are all about. May God give Doug and Ella comfort during this time.

Anonymous said...

Shawndra,
I have been following your story. I am so sad for what you are going through. I admire you in so many ways! I will continue to think of you and keep you in my prayers.

Ella, your mom touched the lives of strangers across the country. I am sure you will always be proud to be her daughter. I have no doubt you will be a fun loving wonderful girl just like your mom.

Dear Doug and family,
I am so sorry that you are going through this. Shawndra seems like an amazing lady and one you will always be proud of. Thinking of you all.

Tracy (from St. Louis)

Anonymous said...

You are in our thoughts and prayers.

www.davidsfight.org

Anonymous said...

Shawndra, we were thrilled when Greg married Andrea knowing what a wonderful family you all are, we got a beautiful daughter-in-law, we were accepted with open arms by each and every one of you and we were thrilled to have a new extended family. The first time we met, we realized how much fun you were, we love your humor, your spunk and the energy you brought to everyone. With that said, your grace, dignity & courage has inspired all of us during your battle with cancer. Ella has the best mommy a child could ever have, always know that your memories will live on through her. We hope for peace and comfort now for the Turner, Beauchamp, and Kristoff families during these difficult days ahead and there after. Shawndra, you are truly loved, God bless you always and forever!!! All our love, Marilyn and Adam

Sherri P eh said...

My love and prayers to you all during this sad and difficult time. Shawndra touched so many hearts with hers, and we are all so blessed. Peace to all of you.

Anonymous said...

Shawndra, you are truly an inspiration to us all. Your smile and laugh are cherished- your courage remarkable. You and your amazing family are in our hearts, thoughts and prayers.

Jessica (Lee) Guten

Anonymous said...

I have been there.....and am so sorry you are there now....it just is SOOOO wrong!!!!
But I do believe God is just not apart of this earthly stuff....and will greet her with open arms!!!!!

Sincerely,
Kitty,Hannah and Matthew

Anonymous said...

We are praying for all of you. Shawndra will soon be in heavan and at peace. With love always, Eric, Tammy, Mattison and Caleb

Anonymous said...

Shawndra, my prayers are with you and your family. What a courageous woman. An amazing faith and truly inspiring openness. As hard as I am sure youR struggle was, the humor and overall complete honesty of you blog was motivating and refresthing. You allowed us to share This journey with you in such an intimate way. That window into your life was unique and refreshing. Honesty sometimes takes the edge off of things that are so scary. I hope that with whatever struggles come my way that I am half as courageous as you are. As a mother, my heart is breaking for you and your baby girl. As a spouse, I am speechless. What a legacy you have left your whole family. May God continue to be with you and your family whatever the next few days/weeks/years brings. Tears run down my face as I say......enjoy the transition into the Holy Kingdom, peace/love/painfree days are moments away. GOD BLESS YOU.

Anonymous said...

Goodbye Shawndra..

May God welcome you with open arms.You will be missed.I hope your passing is quick,painless and in the arms of your loved ones.So sorry this has to happen it is truly unfair.Enjoy the precious few moments left.

Anonymous said...

Shawndra,

I do not know you but I have been following you blog for several months. I admire your strength and courage. I pray for you and your family every day.

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I am praying for you all during this difficult time. I hope that you are able to find comfort and peace. Much love, Amy Larkin Hopkins

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Don MacLeod said...

I came seeking hope but found so much more. For now on… whenever I meet someone named “Shawndra”… I will smile and tell them they have a beautiful name.

Hold Fast “GUS AM BRIS AN LA AGUS AN TEICH NA SGAILEAN”
Don MacLeod

Anonymous said...

I admire you and the family for sharing this journey into the next life with us. Thank you is so inadequate. Praying for Shawndra and the entire family as the Lord prepares you for her entry into a pain-free eternity,

Prayer warrior in Nixa, Mo.

Susan said...

You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers and I pray for God to hold you in the palm of his hand, embracing you, giving you solace for all have to endure. God Bless you....

Anonymous said...

I have been praying for you dear Shawndra night and day. I have been praying for your comfort and peace as well as comfort and peace for your family and close friends. Ella will grow up knowing how much you loved her because the people that love you will tell her and show her!

You are a model of strength and your dedication to your family and friends will not be forgotten. Thank you for allowing us to be a part of this journey.

As another post said - may these last days be as special as the first. I will continue to pray for your peace and comfort....

Allison said...

May peace be with you and your family. I continue to pray for you Shawndra.
-Allison 2H CMH

Anonymous said...

Sending prayers, positive thoughts and love. xxxxxxx

Danielle said...

I've been following Shawndra's blog for a LONG TIME and am so saddened to read the latest post but find joy in knowing that she will soon be healed of this dreaded disease and will be PAIN FREE in Heaven with the fathter. May your family find a peace and May God's grace fall on you all. I'm so impressed with the positive go gettem attitude she has had during this journey. She is an inspriation and is loved by MANY!! Thank you for sharing your lives with us all and for keeping us posted. We lift you all up. God bless you all.

Anonymous said...

My heart is so heavy. We all know that she will go on to a better place. At that time she will be made new and be as she was before her diagnosis. My prayer is that she will be wrapped in his arms as she goes home with him when it is time. My prayers for all of the family are of comfort and peace in this time. It has been a pleasure getting to know one of the strongest and faithful families I have ever met. I love you all and remember my thoughts and prayers are with you and all. Give Shawndra a hug for me and whisper to her that God is with her.

Dorothy Plum

Mommy said...

I wonder if Saundra will ever know how many lives she has changed for the better? Thank you Saundra for changing mine. And thank you Doug, Andrea, Ella, Etc for sharing her with us. I will be thinking of you all and praying for Saundras comfort.

Beth said...

I'm so sorry to hear about the difficult times you all are going through. And I hope you're able to find joy in the time you have left together. Wishing there was something more I could do for you but I'm so impressed with Shawndra and your whole family for your strength and courage.

Anonymous said...

I am still praying hard for Shawndra and the family every day. I pray so hard that when it is her time to leave she is at so much peace and I know she will be greeted with open arms in heaven. How could she not. She is an angel here on earth. She has changed so many lives. She certainly changed mine. I will miss her in my daily life.

God bless you all. I am SO sorry your family is going through this. You all are loved and thought of.

Kristen

Anonymous said...

Shawndra,

I continue to pray that you are at peace & that you know no pain. You are constantly in my thoughts and prayers.

Jennifer Teegarden

Anonymous said...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9abX_wPJEVY

This is a beutiful song ("I've Never Been More Homesick than Now" by Mercy Me and seems fitting for Shawndra, a truly beautiful woman whose Earthly presense will be missed.

Anonymous said...

God Speed, Shawndra.

Anonymous said...

My prayers are with you and your family! Praying God brings you peace and comfort through this difficult time! Praying that the love of God surrounds you and your entire family!

Lisa said...

Thank you so much for sharing your story and your witness. May you find comfort and peace.

Jennifer O said...

I pray for a peaceful departure from this world and for peace in the hearts of loved ones who will be carrying the pain of your loss for remainder of their lives. May their pain be lessened by memories of your laughter, the memory of the twinkle in your eye when you danced w/Doug in the wedding photo you have posted or ANY photo where you are with Ella...if you close your eyes and remember all the little things in your darkest hour of grief you'll feel her presence and be comforted with Heavenly grace.

She reminds me of an Audrey Hepburn in the middle of a military obstacle course...if I ever have to face such a battle, I shall face it with the courage, grace and determination she did! She finished the course with tears of sadness leaving her loved ones behind, but somehow I imagine her with that glorious smile of hers as she leaves this life and turns to grab the hand of God...as the Brad Paisley song plays in the background "when I get where I am going"...

when I get where I am going -there'll be nothing but happy tears - I'll share the sins & sruggles I have carried all these years - when I get where I'm going don't cry for me down here

Chandra said...

I will be praying for comfort and healing for your family. I see you are in the best hands GODs. Shawndra and I shared the same birthday altough I can't remember if she is 31 or 32. I will be 32 on my birthday. We also have similar names. Mine is usually pronounced by people the way hers is spelt. I have read her blog for a few years. She is a strong woman with so much love and support. Again I will keep you all in my prayers.
Chandra Harrington

Astraea said...

God's speed beautiful woman. Go in peace. xoxo

Anonymous said...

Your family and friends are in our thoughts and prayers. Find comfort with God.

Love, The Bakers

Christine said...

Praying for you, Shawndra as well as your family and friends and anyone else touched by your incredible journey. Your legacy will continue on...you have truly made an amazing difference in this world. You are an inspiration to everyone. Thank you for sharing yourselves so willingly and for your true honesty. I cry for your family, but rejoice for you. It is difficult to surrender control to our dear Lord and I know there will be tough times ahead, but don't forget to remember the many, many people you may never meet or greet, but who were profoundly affected by Shawndra are doing things differently because of her.

Anonymous said...

I'm not trying to be nosey, but is Shawndra currently at home, or is she back at St. Luke's?

I want to send a card to her and her family, but I don't know where to send it. Does anybody know? Thanks very much.

Anonymous said...

Thinking of and praying for you constantly. I hope that Shawndra is peaceful, and that you all feel the warms of Gods love during this difficult time. Shawndra will always be with you all. She will make a beautiful Angel.

Donna said...

Turner Family,

Continued heartfelt prayers for peace and comfort for each of you. God is with you.

Anonymous said...

Prayer of Commendation:

"Go forth, Christian soul, from this world in the name of God the almighty Father, who created you, in the name of Jesus christ, Son of the Living God, who sufffered for you, in the name of the Holy Spirit, who was poured out for you, go forth faithful Christian.

May you live in peace this day, may your home be with God in Zion, with Mary, the virgin Mother of God, with Joseph, and all the angels and saints.

May you return to your Creator who formed you from the dust of the earth. May holy Mary, the angels and all the saints come to meet you as you go forth from this life...May you see your redeemer face to face."

Anonymous said...

I have shared many wonderful days with you Shawndra, you too Andrea and watched you grow into such strong and beautiful women. Shawndra, the light in your eyes will always be with me and all the people that you have loved.
We will miss seeing you, but you will be with us, in our hearts, in our memories and someday, I know we will be together again.
Love, Dell

Anonymous said...

Shawndra - May you now receive the comfort from loved ones that you always gave so graciously to them. I am thinking about you a lot and it brings up wonderful memories from school. For it was your laughter that could always be heard throughout the house in college. -Kaitlin Maguire

Beth Plaster said...

Shawndra, Doug and Ella, you are all in my family's prayers. We applaud your courage, your strength, your honesty, and your strong faith. HE will guide you and allow peace to settle into your heart and that of your families. HE is your strength when it feels there's nothing left. Lean on God. He's always there for you. Your daughter is so beautiful and your story has touched my life. I too have a beautiful, red headed, blue eyed, fair skinned daughter. She is our blessing. We cherish her so much. As we know you do of Ella. Show her in every way God has given us how much you treasure her, love her and show that to Doug too. You will always be in our prayers. The Plaster Family

Lori said...

Still praying and thinking about Shawndra daily -- My thoughts and prayers are with Doug, Ella, and all her family and friends!! Let Go and Let God!! Peace be with all of us!!

Lisa said...

Saying prayers daily for peace and comfort for Shawndra. I know she has fought a valiant fight. Prayers also for the family during this most difficult time. Even though I haven't seen Shawndra for awhile, she touched my life in so many ways. She will be missed by all.

Lisa Circle

Anonymous said...

I am praying for you all and remembering the joyful laugh of Shawndra.

Dee Smith

jessica said...

To An Angel:

There is obviously no shortage of Love for you and your precious family. You will all be special in so many lives. Please have pride in knowing that you have helped so many people learn how to live like they never have before. With much remorse and Love for all involved.

Jessica Bratton in KCMO

Anonymous said...

I have been following this blog for awhile now and I am deeply saddened that Cancer has taken another precious person from us. Shawndra and family, I want to thank you for opening your hearts and lives to all of us during this long battle. You have enlightened many of us in many ways, be it about unconditional love or cancer education. Thank you so much and I pray that everytime you look at Ella, you see the love in Shawndra's eyes looking back at you.

Anonymous said...

continuing to pray for peace and comfort for both you, shawndra, and your family and friends. you have truely made an impact on lives all around the world and i am certain that ella will be the direct reflection of shawndra's postive attitude and cheerful personality. those who have known shawndra are better people for having her in our lives even if it was only for a much too short time period. god bless you and keep you out of harm's way.
a fellow gamma o in chicago

Anonymous said...

To Shawndra's family -

I heard a song today on the radio called "My daugher's eyes" by Martina McBride that made me think of Shawndra and Ella. Ella looks so much like Shawndra and just know that everytime you look at her, you will see Shawndra and know she lives on. I pray people look at my daughter and see me in her.

Peace and love to you all. I think about you all the time. I am so sorry that someone has come on this special blog that your family can hold onto and cherish Shawndra's thoughts and posted their negative energy. Those that have any decency respect your time with Shawndra and thank you tremendously for sharing her with complete strangers.

In god's love. Hug Shawndra for all of us.

Kristen

Anonymous said...

"Nothing that is good or beautiful or true can ever be lost."
Love you, Shawndra.

Love, Hillary

Karen said...

God Bless You All. May the Lord hold you in His arms a little closer and tighter at this most difficult time and surround you with a sense of Peace and may you feel His constant Love as you prepare to let go.

Donna said...

When my Dad died I listened to the song "What a Wonderful World" by Louie Armstrong over and over again. It gives me comfort, perhaps it will for all of you. May God be with you, now and forever.

Anonymous said...

Dear Shawndra and Family-
Although I have never met you personally I have been following your blog for the last two years and want to say thank you for opening up your life to all of us.
You have always had a way with your words. I have a sixteen year old daughter who has been through the cancer journey as well. I am praying for you and I am very sorry your journey is comming to the end. God Bless!!

Anonymous said...

Peace be with you during this difficult time but know that Shawndra will be an angel in heaven and we will be celebrating her life here on Earth. Lots of love from the East Coast.

Anonymous said...

Shawndra, thank you for being my friend and sharing your journey. You have such humor and wit that will be remembered always. You have been courageous and steadfast in your fight and have done so with such grace. To your family, thank you for sharing Shawndra, especially in these difficult times. You have also been full of grace and so loving even when I may have been intruding on your time. I cherish the time I spent with her and I thank you. As a parent, it is so difficult to see your child ill. I cannot fathom Carol and Gary how difficult this has been and is for you. Doug and Ella, I don't have the words to express all that I feel for you and wish for you now and in the years to come. You will forever be in my thoughts and prayers.

You are all in our prayers, and will continue to be.

Adriane & the boys

Astraea said...

You are constantly in my thoughts and prayers. I pray these difficult days have been beautiful ones.
In Christ's Love,
Astraea

Anonymous said...

Praying for you & your entire family & friends.
God Bless You Shawndra-
With love from Alabama

Anonymous said...

God bless you and your family, Shawndra. I wish it didn't come to this, but you will soon be out of pain and peaceful. Thank you so much for sharing your story with all of this. You have been a true inspiration - beautiful inside and out. I'll never forget you!
Christy in Tampa

claire said...

Hi Shawndra - I've read your blog pretty much from the beginning. I wish peace and comfort to you and the whole family. What an impact you have made, Shawndra. You must all be so proud.

Anonymous said...

Shawndra must feel your love hoping she is pain free. You are in our daily prayers.

Anonymous said...

We continue to send prayers and love from our corner of the world. You are held in the hearts and minds of many.

jg in ca

Lorna Taylor said...

Ella, as you will read this someday, I want to point out that as of today, your Mom's general Blogger "profile" has been viewed over 11,200 times.

This total does not include the number of individual blog comments that have been left; the 11,000+ figure reflects the number of people who have taken the extra step to click on your Mom's "complete profile," to learn more about her and her remarkable courage.

11,200+ people, from across the globe, who have been touched and educated by your mother's story. Such pride you should feel, Ella Rose!

Anonymous said...

Thinking of you today and always. I hope Shawndra is feeling no pain and all of you are feeling the tremendous amount of love from all over the world. May god wrap his loving arms around you and hold you tightly.
Much love to Shawndra and you all.

Kristen

Anonymous said...

Continuing to pray and think of you all.

Joleene said...

Shawndra- I am so glad to have known you, I will never forget your vibrant giggle. Every time I see a box of Kashi, I will think of you. I know that you are on the path God set for you, and you have done so with courage. I can just hear him tell you "well done, thy good and faithfull servant".

I will continue to have Doug, Ella, and your parents and sister in my prayers.

Joleene Miller

Blommy Mogger said...

Shawndra & Family-

I have followed your blog for over a year now. I am deeply saddened that your journey has come to an end. I hope you all are taking in your last days together and enjoying this beautiful weather we are having in KC. Thanks for sharing your journey with us. I will continue to pray for you.

Vickie Kruse Wieberg said...

Dear Turner family,
My internet has been down for 2 days & all I could do was think about you & Shawndra, praying for you & wanting to get on so I could post a comment today. When it came up, the FIRST thing I did was get on Shawndras Blog.
You guys are constantly on my mind & in my prayers. As I watched t.v. today, STEPMOM came on & all I could think of was Shawndra & how she had the same grace & beauty as Susan Surrandon did in that movie & all of the things she said to her children & what they said to her were beautiful comments that I paid so much more attention to since following Shawndras Blog.
I will never forget this woman that I have only known through her words. At least I was lucky enough to get led to her Blog.
You are all in my thoughts & prayers. Though I dont know you, I grieve for you. God Bless, Vickie Wieberg in J.C., Mo.

Anonymous said...

Turner Family and Friends... My heart goes out to you all. I, as many, have never met Shawndra but have been touched by her dignity and grace through her battle. May she find peace and comfort in the days ahead and her spirit live on through Ella.

Prayers from STL

Anonymous said...

Blessings and prayers for the Shawndra and family. We are all in this journey of life and we all go with the strength of self, family, and those who care.

Astraea said...

I heard a song last night that made me think of Shawndra. It said, "Today I carried the weight of the world on my shoulder. Tomorrow I'm going to fly!" You're in my prayers.

Vickie Kruse Wieberg said...

Dear Turner family, Just checking on you this Sunday. Hoping that you are still having TIME with your beautiful angel Shawndra.
Thinking & praying for you as much as ever. What a tough cookie she is. She has really fought the hard fight, never giving up.
In hospice without TPN, just pain meds & still, shes here, for all of you, because she loves you so much!! God Bless You All, Vickie Wieberg in J.C., Mo.

Jennifer O said...

Thinking of Shawndra today and praying...

Anonymous said...

This time you have together is so sacred and special. I hope you are able to feel the love and prayers that surround you during this difficult time.

Anonymous said...

Still in prayer...always!

Peace and comfort.

Melissa (LSMO)

Anonymous said...

Adding you to my bedtime prayer!

Anonymous said...

I don't know you but have read your Blog. I want you to know your in my prayers. Your family and friends are to. May God be with all of you. God has his plans and we may not understand them but know he knows best. God bless all of you.