Wednesday, October 10, 2007

Labs

Well I got my labwork back for the week. My white blood cell count and neutrophil counts are low which means I am vulnerable to illness/infection. I am on precautions, I have to wash my hands more, stay away from crowds, sick people, lots of children, no fresh fruit, etc. Hopefully that will come back up soon. This is pretty normal with chemo, so it isn't too concerning. I also got my CEA level done this week. It came back as 26 which is double what it was when I restarted my chemo. My nurse practitioner tried to console me, because I practically screamed out when she said the number. She said, is this good or bad, I said "bad". She told me it is just a number and that lots of things can affect it, constipation, diarrhea, lots of things. It was still pretty upsetting to me. I know the numbers can get soooo much higher, but I am wanting the numbers to come down, not up. I know also that the doctor from Creighton said it may take a few cycles to see real results, so I am trying to go on that and not get to worked up over it. I ask though for continued prayer that the chemo is working by killing the abnormal (Cancer) cells in my body and bring my CEA number down. Dr. Foster is basing his decision to operate on me on my CEA number, so I want it to come down so he can atleast go in and take a look. I know though that God has the plan and so whatever happens is supposed to happen. I put my faith in him.
My parents, Doug and I went to a cemetary again to find a nice place to rest. We think we found this place. I have to admit, I am a bit excited to know that is where I will be someday, it is a nice spot, near trees, central to were I grew up. Kind of wierd to be excited but that is how I felt. I am also excited to know that some of my loved ones will be nearby. We haven't figured it all out but I think some of my family will be next to me. Now I just have to figure out what to wear? I am a planner! You are probably reading this thinking I am twisted, aren't you. But, I promise, I am not, I just don't want to leave this burden to others, and this is one thing I can have control of what I want, ya know.
Today, I got to relax. Ella was in daycare and I literally rested all day long!!!! It was great, but it went so fast. Tomorrow Ella has gymnastics, which is always so much fun, then we may take Ella to get her hair cut. It is so nice having Angie here. I think Doug agrees that he is getting nagged less about being around now that I have her here with me. Hehe. He has a new found freedom.
Thank you all for you comments on the blog. I love all my new friends that follow me, I appreciate you all. I know everyone has such busy lives, knowing that you take time to check up on me and think and pray for me means so much. It doesn't go unnoticed or unappreciated. Enjoy these beautiful cooler crisp days, aren't they wonderful! shawndra

22 comments:

Anonymous said...

You are wonderful, and thank you so much for thinking of us, your readers. Blessings, Joyce

Anonymous said...

Shawndra,

I am thinking of you and praying for you each day. I've even got you on 'the list' of prayer recipients at my church - so hopefully you can feel positive cancer-kicking vibes from St. Louis! :)
I'm glad you're able to enjoy Ella so much every day, that is a wonderful blessing.
You're in our thoughts and prayers - stay strong and keep fighting!

Liz

Paulette said...

Shawndra ,
I come and check on you everyday whether you post or not I pray over you. I have several blogs I go to where young mothers have cancer, but I feel it is important to pray for you all.
I have felt the Lord prompting me to do this after my dear friend Linda's battle with cancer, because I knowthe ups and downs and how to pray.
I love your spirit and I pray that you will know everyday that we are here and you are NOT alone ever.
I am so grateful your friend is there as well. When I read that I knew God placed her there. I am so thankful for her.
Blessings Shawndra, I mean that.

Anonymous said...

Shawndra-

You truly are amazing!!! Keep strong!!! Our thoughts and prayers are with you all!

The Mudge's

Anonymous said...

I check on you every day too, Shawndra.

good for you to doing the plot thing too--- you won't need it for a long, long time. you are right though, aren't you glad you got to choose & can arrange it all?

You know, I miss the days of the big "family cemetary." I wish we had that type of thing.

Love, Mollie.

Anonymous said...

Hi Shawndra, I check up on you everyday. We have never met, but I feel like I know you. I do pray for you often and will continue to do so. Stay strong and keep fighting. With Love from Texas.

Brigette said...

Shawndra~ Stay strong and keep your "upbeat" attitude going. I am a faithful reader of your blog, and I pray that you can overcome this horrible disease. Enjoy your family and Ella to the fullest extent......she sure is a cutie!
Your a wonderful Mom and wife......it shows through your writings. Good luck Shawndra, and our prayers are with you always.

Brigette (from CMH)

Michele said...

Shawndra,
I am praying for you daily. I am so sorry your CEA is up. Thanks for letting us know, so we can pray that number back down!
Your Southeast Missouri Colon Sister,
Michele
http://michelepeters.blogspot.com

Anonymous said...

You give me inspiration Shawndra. Thank you. Sue123@twmi.rr.com

Anonymous said...

Shawndra,

As a fellow colon cancer patient, I just want to remind you that CEA levels often go up after starting chemo. It is just the effect that chemo can have on those levels. Some doctors don't even like to check those during chemo since it can have that effect.

Try not to dwell on that number and think about how you are feeling well during the off-chemo weeks. I am holding you in my prayers.

Steve Denny said...

Shawndra,

I spoke to Mike D. today for the first time in awhile. He told me the news. I'm so sorry that you are sick. It's touching to read your experiences and thoughts. What a tough gal!! We're sending prayers, love, and light your way. What a beautiful family you have!! ....I hope that love continues to surround you and your family......blessings

Steve Denny & family

Anonymous said...

Stay tough! Keep smiling!
Jan's friend

nancygrayce said...

I love the idea of planning my own funeral. I was at the funeral today of a good friend's mother and she had planned every single thing, even who would play the piano and unfortunately that lady was out of town! It all worked out. And what a great thing for her husband and daughter. I'm praying your numbers do just what you want them to!

Anonymous said...

Shawndra, it's a number girl!!!! Nothing more. You have come sooooo far and are fighting like no other and you are doing such an amazing job keeping your spirits up. You CAN do this. I just love hearing about your days and how Doug and Ella and your entire family are doing along with your new addition. Blessing for you and each of them. You have no idea how many prayers and love are being send on your behalf. Lots of love, Melodie Chrisman

Anonymous said...

I check on you every single day.... often times more than once! I am praying extra hard for you and your family. Hang in there... You are such a strong young lady and God will see you through this...

Anonymous said...

Shawndra,
You have such a great spirit. Keep up your positivity and zest for life. Praying for you in Chicago.

Anonymous said...

You don't know me, and we'll proabably never meet this side of Heaven! But I just found your blog and am praying for you and your family!

Love from California :)

Anonymous said...

I woke up during the thunderstorm last night/this morning thinking about you. I was wondering if you were awake listening to the thunder and rain? This will be a good day to relax and enjoy the indoors. Have a great day!
Miki

Lindsay Sizemore said...

You are such an inspiration. Keep fighting! You can do this. You and your family are in my prayers daily.
Lindsay

Anonymous said...

You are incredible. I can hear the disappointment in your voice on your blog but you still manage to look at the bright side.... I tear up just thinking of what you and your family are going through. You all are constantly in our prayers as are your doctors.
I didn't think this Friday was good w/Aidan's cough but if we are healthy and not a risk I would love to see you next Friday? I don't want to bother you during family time but let me know next week how you are feeling or I will call to check on you and hear your thoughts.
Love you.
Adriane

Our Family said...

You're amazing. God promises to take away all of our fears, so trust in Him. His love is NEVER failing. Many prayers for a wondful weekend!

Anonymous said...

HI, GIRL!
I just read all the comments.
All they say is- We're here praying for you every day. This chain is a huge faithfull chain that is giving YOU each day the experience to live it as being the last one, and knowing IT REALLY CAN BE.

IT MIGHT BE MY LAST ONE, BUT I'M NOT AWARE OF IT.

WHAT A GREAT GIRL YOU ARE.
YOU ARE FACING IT ALL, AND KEEP UP YOUR FAITH. THAT'S WHAT'S KEEPING YOU AMONG US ALL.

YOU KNOW, YOU'RE SO LOVED.
LET THIS FEELING FILL YOUR HEART, AND ACCEPT YOUR UPS AND DOWNS, YOU'RE MAKING IT, AND YOU WILL MUCH LONGER THAN MANY OF US.
YOU'RE GETTING READY FOR A NEXT JOURNEY, SO, WHEN TIME COMES, YOU'LL BE EVEN BETTER OFF THAN MANY OF US.

WE HAVE YOU ALWAYS IN OUR HEARTS.
GOD BLESS YOU AND YOUR FAMILY.

LOVE,

ROSWITA