Monday, October 8, 2007

Beautiful day

It's raining, overcast, dreary, drab but at the same time it is a beautiful day. I bet if I look back at my blogs, I could see a pattern. Negative titles on chemo week, positive titles for off chemo week. I am feeling pretty good today. I haven't been taking my sleeping pill for the last several nights and I think I wake up better without them. My parents, sister and her family, Doug, Ella and I went to Branson this past weekend. My dad had a meeting there so we went with him and stayed at a condo near his meeting place. We had a good time, I was pretty tired on Saturday, I could hardly keep my eyes open in the morning, so I rested while everyone else took the kids to swim and play on the swingset. The swimming pool had a cool slide, I guess Ella went down but seemed a bit shocked at the end,hehe. Then we got out in the afternoon and took the kids on a short pony ride, which Ella cried through most of, then played some putt-putt golf. I haven't done that in years, it was fun.
Today, Ella and I had a great morning. We just played with lots of her toys, colored, did puzzles, helped mommy clean out the closet, etc. I was just sitting there playing with Ella and thought to myself, this is such a great day. I also had this thought.... I am going to live! It just popped into my head. I am going to live!!! What a great morning, I get to play with my daughter, I feel good, it doesn't get much better than that.
After last week, feeling bad, when you just feel normal it is a great feeling. I get so down when I don't feel good. It makes just feeling normal a terrific feeling.
Ella just went down for a nap, so I think I am going to go rest too. I don't want to overdo it and then be too tired later when Doug comes home.
I hope you all have a great week. I just have lab work tomorrow, my family has an appointment at the cemetary to think about our plots, gymnastics later in the week. It is a fairly slow week. That is good! I will talk to you all soon. shawndra

10 comments:

justme519 said...

I am so glad your feeling better. And it is a beautiful day. There is never a doubt in my mind that you'll LIVE!!! Have a great week. Sending prayers of strength, healing, and love.
Tanya

Anonymous said...

I love you!

Jan

Anonymous said...

You are an inspration! Take care of yourself this week and enjoy the week off. Positive thoughts and prayers coming your way...

-A faithful blog reader

kelley said...

It is a beautiful day. I am happy that the family trip was a success, your Mom sounded quite excited about it. Of course you will live, and you will do it with style and grace and passion, because you know that living is just not existing, but cherishing every moment. Have a great week.

Anonymous said...

What a beautiful day it is!!!! I have no doubt in my mind that you will beat this cancer and live a long and wonderful life with Doug and watching Ella grow into a beautiful woman who I am sure will be just like her mommy. Your strength and courage are an inspiration Shawndra. When I am having a hard day(even though it is nothing compared to what you are going through) I think of how strong you have been through all of this and I know I can be a strong woman too!! Thank you for sharing your journey with us, giving us all hope & mostly for reminding us to appreciate the beauty in the smallest things everyday.
Praying for you,
Melody

Anonymous said...

Great update, we love you. It was wonderful to see you all a couple weeks ago.

You are amazing, and bless us so much.

Tim/Terri/Kendall/Shelby

Anonymous said...

Shawndra-

Hello I am so glad you had a wonderful weekend in Branson. Dan and I were in Branson with my family this past weekend. It is a wonderful place for a family! Just wanted to know our thoughts and prayers are with you!

The Mudge's

Anonymous said...

Delurking to say how happy I am to read your words today. I too believe that you will LIVE - a long and happy time with your beautiful family. I can understand you feel down when you are not feeling good, just always remember how many people are in your army to lift you up! Sending many prayers and happy thoughts your way -
Steph

Rose said...

You are so courageous! Even though I don't know you, I faithfully follow your blog and your progress.

Anonymous said...

Shawndra,
I read your blog faithfully, but this is my first comment. I do not doubt either tha you will LIVE!! Hold tight to your faith, your loved ones, and your spirit during these most trying times. Know that there are many, many people praying for you constantly. Even though we have never met, I think of you everyday on my runs, and pray that you will find the strength to fight this great fight. I have faith that you will, and that you will succeed. Prayers to you, my friend...