Wednesday, September 19, 2007

Chemo... again

Hey all- I got my first round of chemo since I have been off for two months, I consider this starting over. I am doing well. I had a brief problem on Tuesday while they were infusing my chemo. I got lightheaded, dizzy and I felt like I was having a hard time talking, my tongue felt strange. They couldn't figure out what was going on, the only thing we came up with was that I hadn't eaten much that day. It did eventually go away and no other major problems. I got to rest some today since Ella was in daycare. That was much needed! I have been trying to clean out Ella's closet so I got that done for the most part too. Aren't I the go getter, hehe.
I also got in to see a pain specialist today. I was a bit concerned about the pain medication I was taking. I feel like I have built a tolerance and it takes more to get my pain under control. I am also very afraid of addiction, and don't want to feel like I am using it unnecessarily. Anyway, he reassured me I am not going to get addicted and that I was taking a small dose. He said I should increase my dose and take it before I get pain or as soon as I feel pain so I can remain comfortable and how I describe it "normal". Really that is how the pain medication helps me. When I take it the pain and discomfort all over my body but especially in my left lower back goes away. I just feel like I am normal and that I can actually function as normal. That was great to see him and get this confirmation and reassurance. I don't want to end up in rehab after the cancer goes away, ya know. Anyway, I still have my chemo pump, infuses continuously over 46 hours. I go to get it off tomorrow. Then I am free for another week and a half until I go back and do it all over again.
I got to meet Christy, a fellow cancer fighter who blogs and comments on mine from time to time. She seems to be battling a nasty infection, she had a horrible cough. Please keep her in your prayers as well as all the others fighting this nasty disease.
I am off to take my new sleeping pill and get some z's. I'v got to get my energy up to take care of Ella tomorrow and then help my mom who is having knee surgery friday. It is finally my chance to care for her! I need to feel like I am helping others, ya know, not just receiving all the time. Take care everyone! Talk to you soon. Good night. shawndra

8 comments:

Our Family said...

So glad the chemo is being kind to you. Your mom and friend will be added to my prayer list. Hope you slept well!
God Bless,
Astraea

Anonymous said...

You are helping us all. Joyce

Kelley said...

Sounds like the new chemo went well, we will continue to keep you in our prayers that it wipes it out!!! I agree with Joyce, your inspiration and infectous attitude help SO many people every day. While they might not be dealing with an illness, it has taught us all how to savor life and all it has in store for us. While I am saddened by your suffering, I am so inspired by the person that you are. Always know you have a special gift that is such a blessing to so many people. Tell Mama B good luck with the knee surgery, that sounds like absolutly NO FUN!

Dinah said...

A couple of things..... Take care and do whatever they tell you. The pain medication is for you to make you more comfortable, so keep that in mind.....

My mom had knee surgery when she was an older woman,,,, and after having the first one done, with the initial pain stuff, she swore she would never have the other one done.... But of course, it was so fabulously successful that she had the other one done... So know that the pain may be bad at the beginning, but it always makes a huge difference in their life...... So prayers for your momma also. As always prayers to you and keep up your head.... dinah

Anonymous said...

Shawndra-

Keep fighting! Your such an amazing person! We believe in you! Our thoughts and prayers are with you!

The Mudge's

Anonymous said...

Yeah, I am so glad you got the medication you needed. That can be relief of lots of things when you know you do not have to suffer in pain. I will say extra prayers for you, your Mom and your friends. It is good to give back, but as you are a Mom yourself, you do everyday!!!!! You rock and I wish you nothing but sweet dreams this week. Melodie Chrisman

Anonymous said...

I'm so glad to hear chemo went okay. I will add your mom and Christy to my prayers too.
Julie

Anonymous said...

Dear Shawndra,
Sorry the new "sleeper" made you so groggy and sleepy. Sounds like it did the trick, just lasted too long. It will be wonderful to have your friend living with you lending an extra hand. That kind of friendship is priceless!
Thanks for mentioning Jen's Foundation golf tournament. We are hoping for a big turnout with lots of happy golfers who will return each year in memory of my precious daughter. With the success of The JIF, we'll be able to help others like her and your situations of being young, having families and being cursed with cancer.
My prayers continue to go out to you, Doug and Ella, and of course to your entire family. Special prayers will be said for your mom tomorrow.
Much love,
Jan