Friday, July 13, 2007

Well...

I had my scan this morning, thank you all for your wonderful prayers and thoughts. I got innundated today with people from a sight called Especially Heather, thank you for sharing the love Heather!!! Thank you all so much for your unending support, it definitely helps me get through these times.
I tolerated drinking the contrast today, it really wasn't too bad this time, it was like Orange Crystal Light. I tried to think of myself back in college where I just chugged even though it tasted nasty! It worked! I did call a little bit ago and got some initial results. They are concerned that there may be recurrence of cancer in the rectum, pelvic area. They want to do another test, supposedly called an endoscopic ultrasound ( I need to look it up to get more information). I won't know any more until Monday. I am hoping that there is a simple fix to this, maybe a surgery to cut it out or something they can do, as long as there is a possible treatment I think I can handle it!
My very good friend all the way from 5th grade and I with our children went to Wonderscope today to get my mind off things. It is a cute place with different rooms with all sorts of activities for the kids. We had a lot of fun, thank you Julie for your friendship.
We are going to go over to Doug's parents for dinner tonight and I am going to have some wine, maybe more than some, hehe. We are going to enjoy our weekend, we have a party to go to tomorrow night and may have some of Ella's cousins over to play on the swingset. I am not going to worry about this right now, there is nothing I can do, so worrying is not going to help.
Oh, I forgot to tell you, poor Doug, I think he caught a stomach bug that my mom had the other day and maybe what Ella had last weekend. He wasn't feeling well, he ended up coming to the scan with me, we were sitting in the room after I drank my contrast and he just darted out of the room, tried to go to the bathroom but somebody was in it. He came running back into our room and had to grab the trash can and got sick. I felt so bad for him. He has been resting all day. He probably didn't want me to share that with you all, but I just felt horrible for him. I know how miserable it is to feel sick! Doug- thank you for your loving words that you wrote and for the endless love you give me! I am so lucky to have you as my husband and father to Ella.
I better go, Ella is crying in her bed. I will let you know when I find out more on Monday.
Have a great weekend everyone! shawndra

23 comments:

kelley said...

That all sounds like a good plan, to relax and not think about things so much. What will be will be and enjoying the now has got to be good medicine. We will continue to keep you all in our prayers. You are lucky to have such a wonderful husband, his entry was very touching. That's the kind of stuff that let's you know that you are blessed. Hope he feels better and you all have a peaceful weekend.

funlearning said...

From reading your blog, it seems like you have such a wonderful attitude towards this whole thing called cancer. Right now there's not much you can do, so why not just try to not worry? Great idea! I still find that when there is nothing you can do I allow myself to become consumed with all things cancer and then the downward spiral starts.

Anonymous said...

Just wanted you to know that I am praying for you and know that God has you in the palm of His hand, even when it doesn't feel like it. In His Grae, Laurie

Anonymous said...

I came over from Heather's blog. Shawndra, you are in my prayers. Enjoy your weekend. Your new friend, Michele from North Canton, Ohio

Jennifer Sprague, All Natural Mommies said...

I dont know you - I came here via a post from Especially Heather - you and your whole family are in my prayers tonight and every night -

May God be watching over you, your ability to stay strong is amazing to me!

God Bless

Anonymous said...

Shawndra, It was so great to see you today. You never fail to amaze me. I am so proud to be your friend (always have been). You are so right, worrying doesn't do any good. Enjoy your precious family this weekend. May God guide you next week to the right treatment options.
Love and prayers, Julie

Anonymous said...

You are in my prayers. I was so hoping you would be able to go off chemo, take down the ostomy and live a "normal" life again. It WILL happen. Keep the faith!

I am getting ready to start my next rounds of chemo. Maybe I will run into you sometime at the KCCC.

Christy Harrell

Andrea said...

Doug, I am so pleased that you posted, what an awesome heart you have for my sister. Thank you for being her rock! Get feeling better soon!
Shawny- I am disappointed in the result and yet hopeful as you are for a possible surgery to remove this too. We'll keep looking to God for the right path to take to cure this cancer of yours. Don't you feel the warmth and love of all that have posted in the past day or so ... how amazing. THANK YOU ALL for supporting my sister, for loving on her as if she were part of your family too!!
We are SO blessed!
With love and gratefulness!
Andrea

Anonymous said...

PUT EVERYTHING IN THE LORD'S HAND AND EVENTUALLY
YOU WILL SEE THE LORD'S HAND IN EVERYTHING.

Shawndra,
That's a quote that was on my friend Deb's blogsite recently. She is fighting breast cancer and is recovering from a mastectomy. Like you, she has turned to her faith to help carry her burden. We, prayer warriors, are helping to carry your cross. You are not alone. So, if possible, turn your worries over to God this weekend and let him carry your heavy cross. He doesn't mind.
With much love and many, many prayers...
Jan Velander

Minerva said...

Hey there Shawndra,
First time over here, but going through so much that you are too..
Limbo is just the worst, isn't it?

With you every step of the way - ultrasound for me this week...

Minerva

Laurie said...

Hello from TN,

I've traveled over here from Especially Heather's blog. . .and said a prayer for you. You have a beautiful family! God will take care of you.

I have a friend who has pancreatic cancer and is going through radiation and chemotherapy. She is on an experimental program and has had good results so far. She had had her cancer for 1 1/2 years. And she has a great outlook on life, too.

You seem like you have a great positive spirit. Take one day at a time!

Take care and God Bless,
Laurie in TN

Colleen said...

Found you from Especially Heather. Praying for a miracle!

Kathy Ferraro said...

Well, I finally figured out this "blog" think.... maybe. Shawndra, you are an exceptional gal and I have come to admire your strength and courage, so very much. Doug, you're the best but then I've known that for a long time. Hang in there and I'm praying for all of you. Worrying won't help, just like Shawndra said, so go to Nana's and have a glass of wine and have some fun. You all deserve it!
K

Laurie said...

Hi Shawndra,
I dont know Heather or you, but I found you thru Heather's site. I will keep you and your family in my prayers. I live in OP and am an 8.5 year survivor of breast cancer. Here was my mantra thru all of the wonderful surgeries and treatments (also known as "crap" lol):

I believe in the power of a positive attitude.
I believe in the power of modern medicine.
I believe in the power of PRAYER!!!

I bookmarked your blog and will continue to follow your journey. If you ever need a new friend in OP...I'm here!

Hugs
Laurie

Beverly said...

I've just started reading your blog, and you are truly amazing. What a wonderful out look, and I can just imagine the smile your husband described in the last post.

Keep your head up!

Lyndy said...

Hi, I also found you via Heather. Your faith is amazing. You will certainly be in my prayers.

I had cancer almost 10 years ago, so I know it can be scary. I was about your age then too.

I hope you are able to enjoy your weekend.

Lyndy in GA

The Jones Family said...

Heather sent me...praying for you and your family.

Anonymous said...

weird, i remember some of those college days where the chugging of bad-tasting things happened...

in my thoughts and prayers. hang in there.

stassen

CrownLaidDown said...

Still Praying for you Shawndra...God Bless you and your family as you walk this out.
Love in Jesus,
Holly

Annamaria said...

Shawndra, I am adding you to my daily prayers. Heather has sent you an amazing cloud of witnesses. With God, all things are possible. Keep the faith!

Peace be with you,
Annamaria

Kristi said...

I have been out of town the last couple days. I am sorry that I wasn't able to post until now. I am thinking and praying for you daily. Keep smiling and let me know if there is anything that I can do for you Shawndra!!

Anonymous said...

Dear Shawndra,
I found your inspirational story via Heather via Parker!
I am saying a special prayer for you. You are blessed to have so many people in your life that love you!

Paulette said...

Hey Shawndra,
I came by to check on you tonight and say a prayer for you before I retire for the night. I told a friend today about you and as we talked about life and things we both decided that we have such insignificant burdens compared to you. So we prayed for you today during our sweet time together.
I know why God calls me back time after time to uplift you in prayer
it is because I know how cancer effects you deeply and your family. I know how to pray specifically and if I had not went through the turmoils of cancer with my dear friend Linda I would not have known how to intercede on your behalf. So I do that in honor of Linda.
I pray that the Lord comforts you and gives you a time of rejuvination with your precious family this weekend.
You are in my prayers.