Shawndra asked me to write an entry while she's being scanned. Together, just moments ago, we read the results of the PET/CT scan from Wednesday past. As I think & type, I can't seem to block out the sentence in the report that reads -- "This is highly suspicious for malignancy." The scan of her pelvic region today, with intravenous contrast, will aid the doctors in determining how severe this "lighted up area" is.
This feeling of helplessness is aweful. Isn't there somebody out there that can "fix" this? Yes, I'm angry. I don't wallow in self pity though... far from it. Shawndra is enduring most of the pain, and I always remember that. I can be her husband, her rock, her emotional partner, and the rest, I leave to God.
Hi baby. You're walking out of the scan now... with a smile on your face no-less. Oh, how you light up my life. Love you. - Doug