Friday, December 19, 2008

Home For the Holidays!

Hello Everyone- It is good to be back blogging with you all. I've missed you. I have to say, I am making a lot of mistakes in my typing, which I am trying to correct but apologize. My fingers aren't need a little typing rehab,hehe.

Well I got home this afternoon, so it has been a long day. About ready for bed, but wanted to say hello. Thank you all for your love, prayers, words, etc. Please do not worry about what everyone says, i can handle anything anyone chooses to write on the blog (unless it is downright mean). I appreciate everyone's protection, but I am realistic, I know what is going on, for the most part. Even though i am optimistic for a major miracle to keep me alive for many years, I am aware of my situation. People are free to blog how they wish, and I appreciate them all.

Thank you to everyone who came to help me out, thank you to my family and most of all thank you Doug. Many men can't handle such a situation and he has not only stood by me but he has loved me unconditionally even when i struggle to love myself. He lifts me up when I am down and he endures so much to keep our family running when I am not there to help (with a lot of help from my parents on that on). He is incredible. I have received so many miracles already, Doug being one. I think I have already received my share of miracles. I will just continue my service to God and hope he will use me here. Only he knows....

Happy Holidays everyone, I wish you great days ahead with family, friends, love and lots of laughter. Your friend, Shawndra


Anonymous said...

So happy that you are back home!! You are so amazing. It's clear that God is with you and filling you with his peace and wisdom.

I pray that you have a wonderful Christmas with your family!


Roswita said...

It's past midnight, Shwandra.

I hope your are sound asleep, in your cozy bed along with your husband and child.

I'm so excited you're home, kid.

I'm so happy you wrote on your blog.

I'm so happy you can understand us all, but we're always more amazed on your strength and will to go on.


Don't give up.

We haven't given up praying for God to do the miracle you so much deserve!!

We're also aware you are very realistic, and are being able to cope with our words of concern,
and wishes you be in peace and not to be afraid of whatever is ahead of you.

As your grandma just wrote me: "I'm sure God has a good plan for her"

REST, rest, enjoy, accept, love, hug, and yes, you've got the best husband there is.
You deserve him.



Anonymous said...

Shawndra and family, I am wishing you a Merry Christmas! Glad you got to go home today.

Anonymous said...

Praise the Lord that you are feeling better...welcome home Shawndra!!

Anonymous said...

PTL. I am so glad you were able to come home. I was at church last Sunday and a lady asked for a prayer request for a young mother with cancer who had a beautiful daughter Ella. I looked at the lady and said, "are you talking about Shawndra Turner?" I just think it is so neat how God works in all of our lives. Continue the fight Shawndra and you are soooooo lucky to have a fantastic man like Doug!!! (Doug is lucky to have you too). My prayers are with you daily.

Becky E.

Lynn said...

So glad to read that you are home, Shawndra!! I'm sure you are so happy to be home with your family and enjoying your own bed.

Donna said...

Yea Shawndra, you are one spunky woman!!! I am so glad that you are home. Donna

Anonymous said...

Hi Shawndra -

I was in Alpha Phi with you at Drake....I know it's been a long long time, but I came across your blog because my best friend's sorority sister was Stephanie Vest. I was absolutely shocked to put the pieces together and realize that it was you who has been fighting cancer! I really had to keep looking to match up Beauchamp. I didn't want to think it was actually you...Not many people have the name Shawndra and from KC.....My heart was pretty much broken thinking about Stephanie and then reading about the fight you are in. I know I wasn't that close with you in college, but I am praying for you and thinking of you. I saw your smiling face in the blog photos, and I remember you as exactly that - a happy go lucky gal who is fun and spirited. God gives us all gifts, and those are definitely just a few of yours. Much peace and love- Rachel (Roman) Speh Drake '99

Anonymous said...

I want you to know how much I admire your courage and spirit.

I am so glad you are home and I hope you have a wonderful holiday with you family.

Love, Marny

Amberchlopaz said...

Oh dear Shawndra, how much we have missed you and how wonderful you are to say what you have said. I was one of the people who felt I might have said wrong things when I wrote about how much I didn't want to lose you, or for this world to lose you. Thank you dearly for the "permission" to be able to express those kinds of sentiments, though I understood your husband's wish to protect you from such thoughts. I so wish I could meet you. Though it seems a little crazy to feel that you love someone you have never met, I do feel that I love you, and I know I not alone in that. Welcome home. It is true that you are incredibly blessed. Thank you for sharing your blessings with us. With all my heart, I hope you are able to stay home and enjoy Christmas with your beloved family. Love, Joyce

Naomi in GA said...

Im so glad your home, enjoy all the lil moments that will be treasured memories this Christmas Season : ) I pray for your miracle.
I am sorry I texted the heck outta you in the hospital, Ive been so worried, I was just happy to hear back...get worried when we didnt hear updates.
I love ya girl, and call me when you feel up to it, I feel a bond to you a sisterhood as we are going through alot healthwise, not parelling yours and mine, you have MUCH more to deal with,but I pray I say out of the hospital too, 83lbs now..yikes!
PRAYERS and LOVE your way my sister in email..we will be in KS in begining of Jan...hubby has army biz for a couple of days, if your around Id love to see ya and have Adam and Ella play.
Take care and Merry Christmas, glad your out of the hospital!

The Mama Monkey said...

I am so glad you are home! Wishing you a very Merry Christmas full of all the things you love!

Jodi said...

Live, Laugh and Love!! WELCOME HOME!! May you have the most wonderful Holidays ever! Give Ella BIG HUGS!!

Anonymous said...

I am so happy to hear you are home! What a blessing. We missed you, so welcome back but we loved hearing from Doug as well.

You are a tough, brave woman but most of all you are so understanding and realize that all of us faithful bloggers while sometimes words do not come out the right way love you and only want the very best for you.

Have a wonderful holiday and enjoy giving your family extra hugs and kisses.


Robin said...

I am so glad you are feeling better and are home. I hope you have a wonderful holiday season with Doug, Ella and the rest of your family. God Bless You!!!

Robin Junker

Melony said...


I am so happy that you were able to make it home in time to celebrate the most important holiday of the year with your family. You are in my thoughts and prayers daily. I know that God knows the plans he has in store for your life, I just pray that it includes many years with your family. You are an amazing wife, mother and follower of Christ and your willingness to share your life has made a huge impact on my life and I thank you for that. I feel blessed to be able to call you a friend in Christ (and the internet)!!

Have a very Merry Christmas!!

Anonymous said...

Oh Shawndra, I'm in tears knowing that you are home for Christmas. I knew this would happen. You are so grounded in your thoughts and understanding, we can all learn from you. I work for hospice and have learned so much from my work, particularly the compassion that people hold in life and humanity, it is beautiful, rich, and contagious. I wish you many days of love and laughter with your friends and family. You are precious and a gift to us all. best wishes and Merry Christmas, amy graver beers

Astraea said...

I'm choked up right now. It's so good to have you back! (Doug was wonderful, but I missed knowing it was you behind the computer!) Whatever the path, God already knows the way. Take His hand and he will lead you.
Much Love & Prayers,

Anonymous said...

Shawndra, we are thrilled that you are back home, so happy for you and your family. Wow! Ella must be so excited, Christmas morning will be so exciting for her with mommy and daddy. We pray that you have a restful, peaceful and wonderful holiday. Love you so much!! Take care!!

Marilyn & Adam

Anonymous said...

Welcome Home, Shawndra!

Enjoy this Holiday Season. My continued thoughts and prayers will be with you and your family. Keep the faith, courage and don't forget to SMILE! :)

Merry Christmas,

Melissa (LSMO)

Anonymous said...

Welcome Home, Sweet Shawndra!!

Love to you all!

kelley said...

Home at last! That has to put a smile on your face.
Your attitude is awesome. What grace you have been blessed with to handle all this. It is a lesson we all could learn from.
Have a fantastic holiday with family, and give them all hugs and holiday wishes from us. We love you all!

Leisa said...

Shawndra, That's wonderful news to hear that you're home. Prayers have been answered for that. I'll bet it's so good to be there with Doug and Ella. You do have a wonderful husband. You're very lucky to have such unconditional love and support. And the stories Doug has been telling about Ella are so cute. I'll be she lifts you up each minute with her cute little personality. Have a wonderful week leading up to Christmas. I'll be thinking of you and praying for you as always. You're an amazing woman! Take care and God Bless!! Leisa

Anonymous said...

Welcome home Shawndra! So happy you will be home to see Ella enjoy her Santa Christmas. Like you I have CC (5 years here and fighting) so I know what you are going through, I am amazed what spirit you have!! Keep the faith, love, and family happiness! Have a wonderful Christmas with Doug, Ella and your family and friends! Sue

Jess in Nebraska said...

Merry Christmas! So glad you are home and back online! It was great to read a post from you again!
Continuing to pray for your miracle....and what perfect this is THE season for miracles. I will NEVER give up believing for yours.
Take care -
Jess in Nebraska

Michele said...

So happy to see you blogging again. I am so glad you have Doug. I have never met him but I think he is awesome. I know my husband really was amazing during my cancer journey and I will be forever grateful to him. (I try to remember that when he is making me crazy). I hope all of Ella's Christmas wishes come true this year.
Remember you are very loved.

Dori said...


I'm so happy you are home with your family. I've been thinking of you and checking your blog every day. Merry Christmas!


Anonymous said...

Dear Shawndra,
It is so good to "hear" your voice. Welcome home!! I wish you and your family peace, joy and hope this Christmas. May the love that surrounds you comfort you and hold you tight. You are so deserving of the miracle that God can perform, and I continue to pray for you.
- Kim

Svitak Family said...

Shawndra - So great to read your own written message today. You can do it! Have a wonderful holiday! Keep your chin up! You miss so much when it is down:)

Rhiannon from NE

Anonymous said...

You do have an awesome hubby Shawndra, bless his heart, he kept us posted even with so much on his plate :)
So glad you're finally home and just in time for Christmas!
Relax and enjoy your family and friends and stay's cold out there!
Still praying for and expecting miracles girl!
Happy Holidays and warm wishes..

Anonymous said...

Like many others I have not met you before. I do read about you everyday and pray for you and your family. Keep fighting and praying!!!!! Enjoy everyday with your family!

Anonymous said...

Dear Sweet Shawndra,
So glad you're home for the Holidays!! We've missed you in the 'hood! :)
Relax and enjoy this Christmas season and know that you are continually in my thoughts and prayers!
God Bless you and Merry Christmas,

Anonymous said...

So happy to see that you are home with your family to enjoy the holiday. Ella's laughter and smiles will do you wonders. You and your family are in my prayers daily.

Back in Sept. my son's best friend found out he was going to be fighting the same battle as you have been. Jeremy is 32 and he and his wife have 3 children. I have been following your blog for some time and feel like I ran across it not only to be a prayer warrior for you but to also give us inspiration for facing days ahead with Jeremy's family. We live in a town 100 miles south of you here in Missouri and he is taking treatments in down in Joplin. He will also be going to Houston in the near future.
I just want to say Thank You for the time and effort you put into this blog when you all have such a busy life with your own Dr appts and such. You not only inspire but also teach us what going through the cancer battle is like and some of what to expect.

Have a Very Blessed Christmas and stay warm as it looks like the KC and surrounding areas are in for some low low temps!!! Peggy

Anonymous said...

So glad you are at home. Have a wonderful Christmas at home surrounded by your many friends and family. I hope you continue to feel better and we are all praying for you.

The McRaes

Kellista said...


Its so wonderful to hear you're back home and just in time for Christmas. You're right, these little things are the miracles. I think sometimes as Christians we expect something big and grand, like the parting the red sea and such but we forget that every breath is a miracle, every birth, every sunrise, every moment is not ours to own but His. Ok, enough of my "romantic" thoughts on life. ;)

I know Doug and Ella are happy to have you there. You're right again, Doug is amazing. I don't know many husbands and dads that can do what he does and with a sincere smile on his face. You are so blessed and I am so blessed just to be able to see Ella everyday and enjoy her imaginative spirit.

I just wanted to send you a quick note to tell you I've missed seeing you and chatting with you and I've never stopped praying for you and your family and asking God just to continue to do His work in your life. If I don't see you or talk to you before Wednesday, I hope you all have a Merry Christmas!


bahama mama said...

Welcome Home Girl!

It is so nice to see you online again! :) I hope that you have settled in and are resting very comfortably at home. I'm sure
Ella is making sure everyone is in the holiday spirit!
I don't want to bug you, but do want to make sure I can help out. I work Monday and Tuesday and then am off until 1/5. I will plan on calling you in a day or two to check in.

Take care and rest up!

Love you lots, d

PS - You may remember talking about all of your guardian angels, but I do believe your family, Doug and Ella are all amazing miracles God has given to you. I really do thank God, every day, for bringing you and Doug together. He is an amazing husband, father and man...and you are pretty amazing yourself...

Anonymous said...

I am so glad to read you are home for the holidays. I pray for your health as your gift this year. Hope you have an amazing Christmas with your family and friends. Prayers from St. Louis

Anonymous said...

Shawndra, Doug & Ella,

Yeah for Shawndra! I am so glad you are home and will be sharing the holidays with your sweet family. I am sure it must lift your spirits to be back in the comfort of your own home with your sweet little girl & your dog too of course. I hope you enjoy the weekend and maybe you will get that shopping done to that you mentioned. It is amazing to believe that Christmas will be here in 5 days! Enjoy your time with your family and please call if you need anything. You are all in my thoughts & prayers!

Jennifer Teegarden

Dana said...

Welcome Home Shawndra! It is so good to hear from you on the blog. :) We have missed you and are thankful for the updates that Doug and your sister provided us. May you feel the love of God this Christmas season and enjoy the time with your family and friends. Praying for your miracle.

Anonymous said...

Oh Shawndra, I'm so so so so happy to see you made it home. Now keep it that way! :) I am faithfully praying for you every night and constantly think of you when I'm at work. You and all your family are such amazing people.

May you have love, laughter, and comfort this holiday season.

Amy (your personal fingersticker)

Paulette said...

HEY Shawndra!!
Man I missed you!!I pray for you everyday, I loved hearing all the stories from Doug about your sweet girl.
I know God is in the miracle business and I will never give up on that miracle for your full healing and don't you either!!
Have a wonderful Christmas!

Anonymous said...

Shawndra--so glad you're home. You are an amazing woman! Jill (Rilinger) V

Anonymous said...

Shawndra, Blessings to you and your family this week of Christmas. At Mass tonight I thanked God for bringing you home for Christmas. And I want to thank you for being so gracious and selfless in all of your blogs but especially in this one. You are such a sweet soul. hugs from Minnesota. Enjoy miss ella. Take care of you. love, julie (jill's mom)

Robyn said...

What a great attitude-still praying for you!

Anonymous said...

Shawndra--you are such an amazing person and quite an inspiration! I'm so happy you're home and with your family. It sounds like Ella's going to be a ball of fun this holiday and I'm glad you'll be there to take it all in. You've definitely earned a Winstead's burger...and fries, and cherry limeade, and a milkshake. Merry Christmas to you and your family!

Anonymous said...


So happy you are home!!
Enjoy the holidays with you beautiful family!!


Anonymous said...

Shawndra, you continue to show everyone how amazing you are and how strong you are.

Welcome home, Merry Christmas and God Bless!!

Jeremy D.

Kira said...

I wish you and your family a wonderful holiday season!! I hope this New Year brings you many many miracles! Keep your fighting spirit and my family will be praying for you and Doug and Ella.

Anonymous said...

Happy Holidays at home! Asked the Lord at Mass this morning to make this the most magical Christmas you have ever celebrated.

nsussmann said...


I have been and continue to pray for you! I am so, so happy to hear that you are home! Have a blessed Christmas with your beautiful Angel, Ella and Doug and the rest of your family.

Nancy in NJ

Nat said...

Hi Shawndra,

I've been checking in to your blog every few days and was very happy to see your post. I'm glad that you are surrounded with such wonderful family and friends, and hope your Christmas is full of love, laughter and all the hilarity a child can bring you.

Anonymous said...

I am praying for you! Keep fighting and know that good Lord has a plan for all of us! I hope you enjoy the holidays with you family! God Bless!


Anonymous said...

So happy to see that you are home! Merry Christmas!!

Anonymous said...


Welcome Home! Our thoughts and prayers are with you always! We wish you and your family a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!Keep Believing!!! We Love You!

The Mudge Family

Terr said...

So glad you busted out of the hospital finally! Enjoy the comforts and warmth of home (cause it's freezing out!!!) and snuggle with that sweet girl of yours!

Continuing to pray for yet another miracle for you and your family!

Merry Christmas to you all,

Terra Shover

Vickie Wieberg said...

Hello Shawndra, Great to see first thing this Monday morning, that you are at home!! YEAH!! Thought of & prayed for you all weekend.
You continue to amaze me with your thoughtful, honest way with words. You are so wise & strong.
I too am praying for your miracle. You do have a wonderful, beautiful family. I know you must be proud. They are lucky to have you too. It's a " win,win " !! Hope to hear from you this Monday. Hope you tell us how your weekend has been!! God Bless, Vickie Wieberg in J.C., Mo.

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Anonymous said...

We are SO glad to hear that you are home! We wanted to wish you and your family a very Merry Christmas. Enjoy every bit of it! You are an inspiration to us all!
Mike and Lori

Robin said...

Glad you are home and hope you have a happy holiday season. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Anonymous said...

Yey! We are so excited to have you back home in the neighborhood. We hope you have a wonderful Christmas!
Jill & John

Anonymous said...

It is so great to hear you are back at home, Shawndra, and great to hear it from you! YOU have a very Merry Christmas celebrating the birth of our Saviour with your family. Much love to you!


Anonymous said...

Just got Andrea's e-mail that you are back in the hospital. Wishing you a quick in and out and hope that your pain is back under control soon. Love and prayers always!

Anonymous said...

SO happy to hear you're home for the holidays! Hope that you are starting to feel better and regain strength and that you enjoy the magic of Christmas through Ella's eyes! How fun! Happy Holidays to your whole family!

Anonymous said...

'Tis the season to believe...and for miracles. Welcome home sweet Shawndra...welcome home.

Anonymous said...

I pray you're doing well, Shawndra. I am praying that you are enjoying your family at home and that they are spoiling you. Your blog has helped me so much with my battle with cancer. I only hope to be as brave as you are AND as inspiring to others! Love, Sue at: