Monday, April 28, 2008

Happy Birthday Doug

Doug's birthday is this coming Wednesday, so Happy Birthday Baby! I love you so much. It may not be an eventful day, unfortunately but we will try to make up for that on the weekend!
Hey everyone- I had my CT scan this morning, don't know any results yet but it made me sick. I pucked afterwards, ugh. It has always made me nauseous but never sick before. I am better now though and start up chemo tomorrow, again.
On another note, well, I just locked Ella's door, after she asked me too. Now she is crying. I told her she wouldn't like it if I locked the door. Now I just have to stay strong, I guess. So hard.
The lakehouse is thankfully still standing, there is some damage in a couple of bedrooms so there will be some significant restoration needed, but it could have been a whole lot worse. So we are upset but thankful at the same time.
That is what is happening in my world at the moment. I am a bit anxious for restarting chemo. I hope I don't have the agitation and extreme fatigue as I did last time. I also pray that the scan results are good and that when they redraw my CEA level that it continues to be normal.
Thank you all for you continued support along this journey. I truly hope to be able to say one day that I am cancer free. Even though they said it wasn't possible, sometimes the impossible can happen, right.
It might be a few days until I write. If I am not feeling well, I may not get on until I feel better and up to it. Take care everyone. shawndra

PS. Doug is the sucker this time! He just went in to Ella's room to console her.

8 comments:

Anonymous said...

Shawndra,
My prayers and thoughts are with you! I hope your next chemo goes smoothly.
Wendy

Lisa said...

Stay strong...keep the door locked and she will get in her bed and go to sleep! If she thinks you might come in, she will keep crying and pull at your heart strings!!! Trust me...been there, done that. IT WORKS, I PROMISE!!!!

I've got you in my prayers for tomorrow Shawndra! And Happy Birthday Doug!!

Anonymous said...

Shawndra-

Just wanted to know we are thinking of you all! Our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family! Happy Birthday Doug! Keep Believing!!!

The Mudge's

Kelley said...

We'll keep the prayers coming! How can Dougs birthday not be happy, he has two great gals in his life. Don't know what I think about locking the door, but also learned long ago not to be to quick to judge....it has to work for you. Have a great and restful week.

Anonymous said...

Shawndra - you are such a positive inspiration to all of us. I am laughing at the lock on the door...my parents actually put a lock on the outside of the door for my little sister...she was quite a handful. It did work. I know how hard it is to stay strong...but those little minds can be quite manipulative...even when we think they are so sweet. I, too, give in to much...but find myself fighting the same battles over and over because of that. Stay strong...and know you are in all of our prayers!

Happy Birthday Doug!

Anonymous said...

Shawndra,
I'm praying that your chemo will go great this week and that you'll feel good afterwards!...What a miracle it would be to be able to say "I'm cancer free!"...And I know how you're feeling with your little girl. After a month or so of sitting in front of my little girls closed door for hours at a time, we finally put a gate up. If she'd open the door, there was the gate. I'd let her get out of her bed, but I wouldn't go to her unless it was really necessary! I couldn't count the times I found her sleeping on the floor..poor babe. But now I'm afraid to let my 2 1/2 yr old sleep in a "big girl bed"!...I'm waiting as long as I can!
-an Indiana Mom

Anonymous said...

Happy Birthday Doug!!!
We are continuing to pray for you Shawndra and your families. Best of luck with Chemo this week.
I enjoy hearing you Ella stories.....makes me wonder what I will be facing here soon with Caleb!

Phil and Kristal

bahama mama said...

Happy early b-day Doug! I'm sorry you are back on chemo today, but I do believe the "impossible" can happen and will. I'm praying that your agitation was more related to your pain meds than anything, so that it won't be a problem this time around.
I'm also sorry to hear the barium made you ill. Did I tell you that after doing those for over 10 years, I puked in front of all of the people in the waiting room?! I was so embarrassed, and scared they'd make me start over, that I started to cry - in a room full of old people...not one of my better moments. For future reference, I happen to mention it, more as a preemptive apology, in case I did throw up, and they gave me IV anti-nausea meds. Ahhh...relief. :)
Love you and I'm here for you always - d